in high school i was part of the blood committee under NHS and we organized one blood drive a semester. i never donated though. i came close one time and even went through the finger prick but i didn't end up doing it. then at the beginning of the semester, kiwi donated and it made me want to donate too so i signed up to donate today. i had mentally prepared myself and everything. i even ate a huge lunch! when you first get there, you have to answer all these questions and i had answered yes to having been outside of the US and canada within the last year. so the lady asked me where i said paris, london, and china. then i had to list the cities i went to in china. obviously i started out with dalian. so the lady is searching for it on the comp when she goes 'oh that's gonna deter you from donating today.' i was just like 'whaaaat.' apparently dalian is a malaria infected area. who knew -___- im so disappointed. now i have to wait until next year. but i did get a $5 giftcard to starbucks haha.

i also took my chinese proficiency today! it was fairly easy. i think they asked me more questions about myself than they did about the article.

something interesting i've noticed recently is that i've been getting to know and become friends with people i used to have crushes on. it's so weird to think that before, i could only look at them from afar but now they've become so close. we say hi when we see each other and even talk online. it's really quite a strange feeling.

sometimes i wish i had the ability to just switch off my emotions. this whole thing is just so completely stupid but most importantly, i feel stupid for feeling this way. i just need to stop. seriously.

最近我的心里真觉的好烦。

sometimes, i feel like i expect too much out of my friends. but then if i am able to do this (whatever it is), why can't my friends do it too?

guess what i did today? i shot a gun! O.O

my friend has membership to a shooting range and he gets to bring another person for free. i got a 9mm caliber pistol. to be honest, i was extremely nervous when i first held the gun and i had no idea what to expect making the first shot. my friend demonstrated for me first and all i have to say is that it's LOUD. and i was wearing ear protectors too. i was actually afraid to press down on the trigger at first. when i finally did, i was surprised at how powerful it was. the recoil was pretty strong. i managed to hit near the target a few times. all in all, it was definitely an interesting experience. i now know how to load and shoot a gun. watch out ;)

when im at school, all i want to do is go home. but when im finally home, all i want to do is go back to school? why is that? oh i know why, because my parents will never stop lecturing. its the same thing over and over gain. i get it already! today, my mom lectured me at the food court in the mall. i think we've reached a whole new level on the lecturing.

i should really be studying or sleeping right now but i'm too angry/annoyed to do anything productive. so...i shall blog about my evening.

the kennedy center has this program for people between the ages of 17-25 where you can get tickets to select shows for a really cheap price. tonight, kiwi and i went to see the new york city ballet perform. i got us orchestra seats for only $20! it was both our first times watching ballet live so we were extremely excited for the show. most of the people seated around us were old couples. i thought it was extremely cute. i would love to see shows with my husband when we're old and have nothing to do. it's very romantic :D

i was mesmorized the second the show started. the dancers are freakishly skinny but in a way, it's quite beautiful because it gives them that willowy effect when they dance. it really is beautiful how light on their feet they are. and the men, they are so muscular! haha. i think every girl at some point wanted to be a ballerina until they realize it's more than just wearing a tutu. it really is a form of discipline...just look at their feet. i remember gaining so much respect for ballerinas after watching the movie "center stage". it's one of my top movies <3